Coming back from a trip around the world, I feel more inspired and determined than ever. It’s only now that I realise that if this is what I want to do, I need to put everything I’ve got into it. It’s been hard, but it will only get harder. At the end of the day there is always someone out there doing something better than you, so to compete with the best, I will need to life my game.
Can you imagine getting a coffee with Neil Patrick Harris. Seeing a Broadway show with Lea Michele. Spending hours looking around Barnes and Noble with John Green. Scrolling through tumblr with Tyler Oakley. Sitting in on a recording session with Paul McCartney.
What would it be like, to live your life among them.
I think a lot of Australian’s live in a bubble. A bubble caused by the fact the country we live in, is basically the sum of our continent, and by the fact that Australia is an island surrounded by water with no countries at our immediate border.
In this bubble, people think the way Australia is, is the end all and be all. They think that if you have a different tradition, you have brought here, to something practiced here in Australia, you should learn to conform or leave.
How is it in a country, whose foundation is built on multi-culturalism, is so afraid of something different being introduced to them?
And why do I here increasingly “our country”, like Australia is a club house, and we can pick who can come in?
Australia is the country you live in. It doesn’t make it yours. It should be for anybody wanting to live in the lucky country.
You can see it as either a blessing or curse that the youth of today are connected to the internet, and use digital technology at such a young age. Which ever way you see things, people my age are so dependant on technology that we can’t live without it.
During my five day stay in Anaheim, California I was deprived (I use this word loosely as I realise I live in a first world country, with a roof above my head, while others around the world are much less fortunate than me) of a wi-fi connection, meaning I would have to utilise the conveniently placed nearby Starbucks and McDonalds to see everyones tweets and trends. Luckily this was only for five days, as if this was for two weeks of internet for 15 minutes in the morning, I would of gone a bit crazy.
I know this sounds absurd, but living in a world where the internet is accessible on your phone anytime you want, you become used to it, and for me there is no way to change my nerd for an internet connection 24/7.
These last days have been pretty uneventful. It’s been a mix of sitting around planning to accomplish things while not doing them, and watching Parks and Recreation while eating ice cream. Watching Parks and Rec has done me a favour though. It has given me the perfect quote. If only in Australia we did yearbook quotes, cause this line muttered by Chris Pratt, might of been mine. “My life is a giant mess, and I love it”.
I’ve put my iTunes on shuffle an hour or two ago. I haven’t been able to find an album that I really wanted to listen to, so I changed things up. It’s been strange listening to songs I have had on my iPod for ages, but had never listened to them. I guess that’s what happens when you download every Elton John album.
This time next week I will be preparing to leave Australia for a month. Something I have been preparing for so long has finally arrived, and the next week will go so slow. I think that’s why I’ve been so un-motivated the last two days. I’m so close to being on holidays, but I’m not yet. And since I feel this whole year has been leading up to this, I just need to finish this, to move on. Now I’m 100% super excited to be going away, but I think once I get back it will start a new chapter for me. Graduating at the end of November last year started this new chapter, and my holiday will close it. So I’ve decided to regard the last nine months as the “Dodgy Holiday”. My dodgy holiday will continue, just in different ways.
I feel lost in the direction of my life. The word lost is an overstatement, but right now I don’t really care enough to find a word closer to the emotion. It’s like, I see where I want to be in ten years, sort of, but don’t know how to get there. Thinking about me being twenty-nine is pretty strange. Unfortunately for me there is no guide book or how to for dummies to be a successful journalist slash internet personality slash lovable personality that may make his way onto television. A few years back I was struggling with what I wanted to do for the rest of my life (still am), but I decided I wanted to work in the surroundings of pop culture, so I decided I wanted to be an entertainment journalist, whether it be in print or on screen, or both. Somehow I’ve always found it hard telling people this, and now I think it might be because I don’t want to lock myself down into one thing.
The other day I watched a live show Donald Glover did called “Weirdo” on Youtube. For those of you who don’t know, Glover started out on the witting staff at “30 Rock” the year he graduated from NYU. In 2009 he became more well known for his work as a cast member on “Community”, until he left to focus on his musical career where he performs under stage name Childish Gambino. So after eight years in the spotlight Glover has done acting, stand-up, and made a music name for himself. That’s what I call not getting locked down.
Most people who know me now days wouldn’t know that I took acting classes between grades 2-7, and was also in a few of my high school musicals. Throughout all of this, I never considered acting as a career. For the most part this is due to me not being a serious person. Now looking back, whenever I wasn’t being serious, was when I was enjoying myself the most. During acting classes I was given a small plot and given time to prepare something to perform for two or three minutes. More times than not, little planning was done, so an act would be created as it went, which I preferred.
The death of Robin Williams got me thinking about acting, and to a greater extent, comedy more. Is there anything better than being able to make people laugh? More so, I feel someones laughter means they enjoy hearing you speak. I can’t think of anything better than that.
Similar to how Josh Thomas has titled his show “Please Like Me”, I feel this runs true for me. Although they may need to change it to Please Love Me. Not that I’m looking for love, but I feel that you can like someone without really enjoying their company.
So anyway tomorrow I will try harder to do something in the life of Jayden. I plan to put a vlog on Youtube just to talk about everything Pop Culture, but I always feel like I’m trying too hard when I film myself. Like if you were to hear me speak about certain events in real life, they would be told in a different way. I guess it’s because you can’t edit in real life.
When I started writing down my thoughts here, I was listening to “The Kids Don’t Stand A Chance” by Vampire Weekend, which lead to Simon & Garfunkel’s Bridge Over Troubled Water album, which has now rolled into Poses by Rufus Wainwright. it was all pretty low key music in terms of tempo and sound, that is when you take “Cecilia” out of the mix, but I wanted want to do that. And now Wainwright’s lush production is getting a bit to much, so I’m going to cut him off and put on Survivor Gabon. So that ends my little stream of consciousness writing for the night, and after it all, I still haven’t found what I’m looking for (nice U2 reference), but i didn’t think I would in a hour of putting down my thoughts.
Last week I was asked who I was flying with for my overseas trip, that is now only a month away. I knew where this was heading straight off the bat. I answered saying not with Malaysia Airlines. I the added by saying all planes are safe, which isn’t entirely true, but you have to think this way.
On my first overseas trip to Bali, when I was nine, we went to a restaurant which I think was called Bali Aussie. This trip took place between the two bombings in Bali. At the restaurant all the staff wore black t-shirts, with a quote in white lettering on the back. This being a effective colour scheme caught my eye. The quote was: “A life lived in fear, is a life half lived”. Which is absolutely true, and was powerful knowing what the country and other tourists had been through a few years earlier.
So as many terrible things happen in the sky, and unfortunately they may continue to happen, I will continue to fly on planes.
I think I’ve finally got a plan. While everyone in year 12 had everything set, I was never so sure on how things were going to unfold. I had a clear vision of the future, but wasn’t sure how I would get there. I’m currently enrolled in a one year Tafe course that I’ve deferred from but I’ve now decided to re-apply for University next year. I feel like my plans for next year have been on my mind for a while now, and it doesn’t help when everyone is constantly asking what will happen. So here is the plan for next year. Go to Melbourne Uni, studying Bachelor of Art, majoring in Screen and Cultural Studies, and maybe studying Media and Communication as a minor. So thats that.